Glowing with <3

I'm actually typing & backspacing while trying to put my thoughts down in words.

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I'm finally back in Singapore after spending 12 days in HK,

& i actually missed 2 weekends of fellowship.

Truth be told,

on Saturdays spent in HK, 

I'd be wondering what'd Glowing be doing now, 

& it was during times like that I would wish i could just teleport myself back to church for fellowship.

Now that i'm back,

& as Twinkle updated me on the happenings of Glowing for the last 2 weekends,

somehow i felt rather distant.

Not because i wasn't there for 2 weeks, 

but I felt that Glowing wasn't exactly how i remembered it to be.

Maybe people in Glowing are just not as attached to the fellowship as they were before,

and it's really very saddening if this is really the case.

How can we bring new friends if we are not even attached to our own fellowship?

I really pray that God's love would bring us back together.

Even though we may have exams, work & other obligations which had given us the "so-called authority" to exempt us from attending fellowship,

are we really being truthful to God, 

or are those just excuses to give when you're questioned regarding your absence.

Glowing Fellowship is not a tutorial which you have to submit a MC to prove that you're rightfully excused on a Saturday evening.

I think that the bottom line,

is that you, yourself, should be attached to your own fellowship & feel committed to attend it even though you're given a choice.

Glowing would not grow,

if people in Glowing are not growing either.

If you think that since there's less than 10 people attending fellowship this Saturday,

& it wouldn't make much difference if You're absent as well,

let me tell you that You would make the difference.

Perhaps Glowing doesn't seem so warm & lively as we were before,

but that should not serve as a barrier for us to attend it religiously.

I'd apologise if my post seem too solemn & serious,

but I really hope that you would search your heart after reading this post,

& pray to God that He'd help you find your way back to Glowing Fellowship,

cos' it's just like finding your way back to a place you'd call Home.

As we gather,

may Your spirit work within us.

As we gather,

may we glorify Your name

Knowing well that as our hearts begin to worship.

We'd be blessed because we came.

We'd be blessed because we came.

In His love,

Xiwen.